It’s just me . . .

13 Mar
I am so laughing at myself. I have been a journaler all my adult life — and by adult, I mean since I was in like 7th grade or so. (I thought I was an adult or should have been — I’m trying to remember to be kinder to my own daughter when she reaches that age then my parents were to me — but I also know it will be hard not to a little unkind and laugh as she asserts her adult rights when she’s barely into double-digits.) As a journaler, I have regularly gotten the perfect journal, written in it religiously, and then, at some point, decided it wasn’t right anymore. It didn’t suit me. It didn’t meet my needs. It didn’t match my unique and oh-so-complicated personality.I guess some things never change.I am fighting the urge to toss it all overboard and start over again. For years that is what I did. I couldn’t bear to keep my old journals and re-read them.

Oh, God, how could I have ever been that young? Was it only two months ago that I thought those stupid, shallow thoughts? Oh spare me from my younger self!

So, while I have merged certain of my blogs (I kept the blog about the motorhome and the teaching blog and the blog about Crafty Chix all separate.), I am fighting the urge to toss it all and start from scratch. I have thought of setting up my own domain and blogging from there. I have thought of switching services (although that was fleeting — I really do love WordPress*). I have thought of just dumping egrets nest altogether and starting over with a “it’s just me” blog.I’m going to try to leave things as they are and hold on until the urge to purge passes. If it’s lingering too long, I’ll try to direct it towards the nightmare that is my linen closet or even better . . . my hall closet. Can you hear the scary music rising as the heroine walks backwards towards the steps that will surely lead to her doom?Stay posted people. Will there be subtle change or will she snap and go overboard and die her metaphorical hair bright red and change her name to Dakota? Only time will tell!

Quizzical Expression

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* I love WordPress if only for the Answers.com feature so that I can link random words in my posts to things that have no meaning to what I’m posting about. How could I resist including that “The Dakota” building above? It’s massively cool. So, there ya go. One decision made. WordPress stays my number one.

** Clearly, I am not the only one thinking such Deep Thoughts.  Here is an article written on the topic with some interesting points to consider.

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7 Responses to “It’s just me . . .”

  1. robin andrea 13 March, 2008 at 7:10 am #

    I don’t think I could ever delete Dharma Bums blog. There are so many wonderful photographs and comments there. I could see starting a new blog for myself, though, where I might explore a different kind of writing. I feel a bit closed down and not particularly creative, and I think a new space might offer me some freedom. I’ll keep following your progress here and see what evolves.

  2. BEG 13 March, 2008 at 9:06 am #

    It’s an interesting question. I don’t like deleting things, per se, because it is a personal chronicle no matter how it was publicly presented. I find that what I do is remove older material to either private or offline. So the blog stays tidy and more on point, but what I have written in the past I can always look up myself.

    Like many people, much of this clearly depends on the intended purpose of your blog. Mine is mostly as a journal, so I face different questions than someone who ran, say, a political or topical blog with hundreds of commenters…

  3. mary 13 March, 2008 at 10:28 am #

    I would never delete anything on my blog but I would consider renaming it. I like your new name, Liza Lee! It suits you PERFECTLY.

    A few times a year, I’ll go back and read some of my older posts and yes, I wince. But that’s OK with me.

    I’ll be looking forward to see the rest of your changes. Change is good.

  4. jayne 13 March, 2008 at 12:50 pm #

    LOLOL Liza. “It’s just YOU!” :c)

  5. Sandy 13 March, 2008 at 2:09 pm #

    Guess, I am a newcomer to journaling, since I have only been at it for 20 years! Looking back, I sure do see things that I am glad I wrote instead of saying to someone, though. Maybe that is what it is about–talking to a block of paper to clear your head.

    This new look is nice. Whatever you do, I am sure it will be something I will enjoy reading.

  6. mon@rch 13 March, 2008 at 6:14 pm #

    I hope you don’t delete what you have done and start from scratch! I two love wordpress and believe it or not but also use the free wordpress as you do! You can easily get a new domain for $15/year attached to this blog and just change the title (without loosing everything)! If you have questions on doing this . . . please email me! 🙂

  7. Liza Lee Miller 13 March, 2008 at 10:14 pm #

    Thanks everyone for the support! I really apppreciate the kind words. Whatever other reasons I blog, the feedback and the knowledge that people are reading my words is an important reason why I keep doing it day after day. So, thank you!

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